I’d be lying to you if I said I’m taking turning 40 years old in stride. For all of my “accept and age gracefully” blah blah blah pontifications, I admit to having a certain amount of, shall we say, resistance to the number 40. 🙂
It’s crossed my mind a few times that blogging is a “career” for millennials. Or rather, an obsession for millennials. Whether they are financially able to make it a career or not is a whole other animal. But companies are clamoring to influence the future generation of consumers. Which has made me stop on more than one occasion and wonder where I fit into that mold.
I’m coming to the conclusion of “screw the mold.”
This week is New York Fashion Week. Last year I went with my friend, Jess Cathell. We went as an invitation from RewardStyle and spent the days at blogger-mecca events. But what really happened is she and I bonded and started a friendship and realized we were a bit different than the 22 year old bloggers there – and we were proud of the difference! So much learning had happened since were 22 and we each walked tall, happy with where life had lead us. And then we butt in front of those 22 year olds at the bar (age gives you confidence), ordered a few cocktails and laughed like crazy all weekend. 🙂
I haven’t posted on Instagram as consistently as I usually do. I’m sorting through what I want to say these days.
Here’s what I can say for sure:
I am not at Fashion Week this year and I’m thrilled about it. I ended up deciding not to go. I’m watching my friends at NYFW through Instagram with sheer joy. They look fabulous! I’m so happy to see their success. Not for one moment am I envious of the publicity they are receiving or new career parternships. (I’m sort of envious the amazing cocktails though!) I’m so happy for them! Right now, in my life, I’d much rather be at my children’s baseball game this weekend, and grilling by the pool. This is where my life is, and this is what I want out of it. I’m lucky in so many ways.
Saying this feels like a relief for me. I think I thought I’d feel envy. Or a fear of missing out. Or an insecurity that maybe my blog has become stagnant.
But hooey – my life’s mantra came to me from a book I read in college by Maria Shriver. She said “You can do it all. You just have to do it all over a lifetime.” Amen, Maria. That phrase has shaped me more than I can tell you.
So, for now I’m embracing turning 40, letting that wash over me, and inform my thoughts for where my blog will go from here. What will I share? What will I focus on? What will I do with this forum? I don’t have all of those answers.
But as I type I have a peaceful smile on my face and an excited outlook to see what will happen in the next phase of my lifetime.